I mailed YAHWEH'S petition to the last of the out-of-town names on my list of pastors that I was personally associated with. I now begin to seek GOD in regards to the remaining names on the list who are all located with the geographical same area in which I reside. I ask YAHWEH how I should deliver His petition to them. He begins revealing to me that I should contact them with a phone call or an email to arrange a personal one-on-one meeting. As I begin to think about what He is prompting me to do I become fearful. I have not been in contact with some of these pastors for years. I begin thinking fearful thoughts such as; "What if they begin to question the purpose of our meeting - what will I answer?" "What if they are reluctant to meet with me because they are busy or because they are suspicious of my motives?" The enemy continues to plaque me with questions, doubts, and fear. I begin to procrastinate and make excuses to YAHWEH why I am not capable of carrying out His instructions. Mailing the petitions was not that fearful but GOD was now telling me to go in person to deliver His petition to the remaining pastors on the list. I recall the advice that I received from numerous Hebrew Roots people in the past several months. They told me that I was only "Casting my pearls before swine" by trying to wake-up Christian people with the petition, They told me that "Only YAHWEH is able to remove the veil of blindness from the eyes of Christian pastors" and all of my efforts are just in vain. I rehearsed their well-meaning advice before YAHWEH, thinking that He would agree and excuse me from my calling, but He was not buying any of these excuses. Because of fear, I continue to procrastinate and make excuses - excuses to myself and to GOD. I begin to pour myself into the study of GOD'S Word.. I begin a new in-depth study of the Scriptures through a ministry called Torah Class with Bible Teacher, Tom Bradford. My wife and I continue to attend a weekly home Torah study group on Shabbat where we study the Scriptures intensively and fellowship for hours every Saturday. I try to remain constantly busy hoping that GOD'S instructions to me will either somehow go away or be drowned out. Days turn into weeks - weeks into months and yet His still small voice keeps reminding me, especially during the nighttime while trying to fall asleep, that I am procrastinating, making excuses, and not obeying His instructions.